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March 28 恩師圓寂了。 我還沒好好報答上師的教導。。。。。。。 這天我們全世界弟子還為法王念經祝壽。 本來還打算7月份要不要去見法王。。。。 去年上師特意為我端坐法座上讓我拍的最後一張照片。。 這個照片有些師兄看到法王坐好讓我拍，要跟我拿， 我還從沒發過出去。 上師言教沒有好好修，有愧于心。 上師最後一次問 ， 你有沒有好好修。。。。。  我只能老實作答。。。‘沒有’ 上師走了，沒法跟上師交代了 January 04 New Year Countdown After dinner on new year’s eve, we finally agreed to drive to Niagara Falls, even the family started to feel sleepy after dinner. well we sort of missed the countdown. i saw the fireworks, which lasted less than 3 minutes, but we did the count down in the car. we didnt make it to the count-down concert where everybody was. then i saw the crowd leaving while we were still in the crowd. A little cheering and mild screaming as the tamed crowd moved on to their next party location, or their warm hotel beds. by the time we got there, actually b4 we got there, we spent 1/2 hours looking for washroom. but all highways stops are closed last night so i was at the falls , near the 100,00 0 budhha stupa, that the countdown started. we were in the car. my younger son was asleep but he complained when back at home, that we should have woken him up. which we attempted but fireworks lasted 2-3 minutes only so we gave up the efforts. then we drove on Victoria street, where the main actions and attractions are and looked for washroom and headed home. got home aroud 3 am. finished some little things and before i know it, it was 6 am. i was suposed to start a webcast at 7 am miseed it and the net connection got interrupted. woke up at 9.. i have no mood for christmas this year.. no christmas lights inside or outside of house, no christmas tree. i will not celebrate christmas this year. Even our neighoubours dont have xmas lights on. Normally people go crazy about xmas lights many people have no mood for christmas my sister in law will be in the christmas choir at her church and i will see her performance on Silent Night (tomorrrow). that is the only thing i will do for christmas. many peole lose faith in xmas this year (Later it turned out that the choir performance didnt happen to our family) interestingly, I started to have the mood for Christmas songs on Dec 27. Till Dec 30th, I think, I still listened to Christmas songs on a Christmas radio, which is the only one dedicated to Christmas songs this year. I think it was the first Christmas station. However, even this one started late this year. While in previous years, it started way back in mid November. And they started in early December. That is another reason, other than economic and financial setbacks, that I sort of lost the spirits of Christmas this year. 我們各種心情的生起與變化，都是來自於「根塵交接」的這一些事情正在發生的緣故。簡而言之，就是︰「在根塵交接時，心情隨之生起！」
譬如說，眼睛看到醜境時，生起厭惡的心情﹔耳朵聽到噪音時，生起雜亂的心情﹔鼻子聞到香氣時，生起舒鬆的心情﹔嘴巴吃到美味時，生起快樂的心情﹔身體感到疼痛時，生起痛苦的心情﹔腦海想到仇人時，生起怨恨的心情。
每當自覺到情緒不佳的時候，要懂得從「根塵交接」的地方去找出那一份為什麼了。其中，或許是因為眼根和色塵交接所引起的、也或許是因為身根觸塵交接所引起的，而通常則將之總歸納於～意根的腦系統正在想到了什麼事（法塵）所引發出來的。
既然都知道為什麼會情緒不佳原因和它的出處了，於是，你就可以對症下藥的先來改善或修正根塵的條件而轉化心情了。
一般的大眾，就是在不知未覺之中，把事情的發生，直接就變成為心情的反應了，這是我們眾生的無明習慣，我們不要一直被這一種習慣左右或控制才好。換句話說，就是要降伏分別心，並且，在根塵交接時，儘可能的不再「事情生心情」就是了。
過去，是因為「不知未覺」和「太自然」的緣故，所以才會讓「事情生心情」的心理習慣一直持續下去，才會讓自己變成是那一條被舞蛇人作弄而一直在舞動的眼鏡蛇。
如今，你既然都已經明白了，當然就不再是屬於「不知未覺」的那一種類型的人了；所以，以後在你即時的「自我提醒」中，將會生起智慧去轉化那一些「太自然」的慣性反應了。請你直接去經驗它，自然會受益良多，這是真實的智慧觀察，所以是很實用的，請你直接做做看就知道了！ September 27 有了希冀， 执着后果，烦恼因之而生。
有了希冀， 就有恐惧，就有失望。
心无挂碍，无挂碍故，无有恐怖。远离颠倒梦想。。。。 September 25 有沒有覺得，當心靜下來，反而覺得念頭很多？ 甚至感到寂莫？ 又或心感不安？
那就是你是不甘寂莫， 平時思想複雜。是你的 sense of insecurity 作怪。
禅定，就是对治妄念的良药 September 05 人生的意義，我沒有參透。 一次的意外，一個火化，還有眼見的老人， 都是一個啟發。可是，我沒有參透。
'xx姐，我有聼你的話。。。。', '我很勤力工作,不再偷懶, 。。。聼媽咪話，有減肥，有跑步，有。。。。。'
好一段 confession before dead bed. 我很受感動。
那個躺在床上的，是我的19 年朋友。
Few days ago, i was almost involved in a fatal accident.
Then the next 2 days, i attended the 'last viewing' and her cremation ceremony.
I am thinking, i havent seen this friend for a year. i could have talked to her one last time, if i visited her sooner. Even by 1 day.
The day i visited her, she felt unconscious. Maybe she never heard my last words to her.
人活着，意義何在？那些老人家，又在為餘生在努力掙扎。而自己也為身體老化而擔憂。。。
究竟這個是爲什麽？
September 02
Long weekend, the labour day weekend in US and Canada, just before i reached home after driving over 12 hours back from the US, a car driving at high speed from the opposite direction travelled to my lane and almost hit me head-on. The car driver just have enough time to avoid me and then lost control of the vehicle and hit the ditch. Then around 10 police cars pulled over and the police went to pull the driver out of the car and, according to my son, he was pinned down by the police. The policeman taking my statements told me the driver did not stop for the police and implicitly it means there was a poilce chase. I could have left the world had he not tried to drove back on his side of the road. Apparently he was driving very fast, and when i saw him, i was scared that i was going to get hit. Then i saw him moved back to his lane but due to high speed, he lost control of the car.
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last night, 8 hours ago, as I returned from USA to home, I almost was involved in a fatal accident.
Thanks to the Buddhas, it never happened.
The details are posted on my MSN space.
Yes, I almost got killed, if the guy didn’t turn away in time. He was running away from the police.
There was no evidence of a chase, but within 30 seconds, over 10 police cars pulled in.
They caught the guy and pinned him on the floor.
I remained in the car so I don’t see things very clearly.
At his speed, and my speed, the collision would have been fatal.
At the moment i saw his car coming onto my lane, I was only thinking that I was going to have an accident, and 'What is the guy doing in my lanｅ？
i thought the guy was going to hit me. then he swerved off and lost control. i turned back to check on him, but the police came.
I didnt realize it could have been dangerous at the time.
August 24 無論過去是喜與哀，你永遠是我心中的好友。一個好朋友，是不會在我心中消失。我會為你長期的祝福。願你有快樂的一生，快樂的伴侶， 快樂的家庭。
July 24 On this day of my birthday, I didnt spend much time celebrating, except i organized a dinner with my family..well, at least treat myself right to some nice food. Just home from dinner. On the way home, watched the pink/red sunset, so beautiful.
i just tried to enjoy my birthday.. for the 1st half of the day, i didnt do much, only tried to enjoy my day.. driving in the rain--thought it was romantic. walking in the rain--thought it was romantic and soothing. At end of work day, then i decided to treat myself right by going to a restaurant. I just put myself into the mood. but of course, i received a lot of birthday wishes from online friends. that makes me feel good.
Thanks everybody for their good wishes. Love you all.  July 17 Happy birthday to me.
Shortly after the turn of the day, i went to get some groceries and good treats for myself--for my lunar birthday.
Some people are confused with my birthdays. Yes, i have 2.
For years, i consider lunar birthday is my real birthday, on which day i advance 1 age.
But for friends and family, no one cares for my lunar birthday.
So, on my real birthday, i am a lonely soul, lol.
I celebrate myself, for myself.
Happy birthday, brendon.
Until next week, my solar birthday. Until then. May 27
很多人說，奥運不應涉及政治， 但主辦單位, 就以此要求中國政府在人權上能關注，給以改善。舉辦奥運，本身就有政治目的，沒有政治經濟上的利益，哪個國家會來辦奧運？ 難道國家領導人都喜歡看體育比賽？難道烟草公司都喜歡看賽車、體育比賽？
人權， 是中國人不理會的事情，政府是這樣，人民也是一樣。人民，窮的只管找吃的，這些人受國家恩惠最多, 最會支持政府的話, 願意接受思想教育；有教育的，有些條件的人，又只會找賺錢的方法，怎麽時候買樓，是他們的關注，其他人權不人權，也懶得理會。對於人權， 中國政府只會跟外國人說，這是自家內政事, 外人管不了。 國家内政，外國人無權過問。
君不見, 緬甸人民慘受風災之害, 軍政府卻以相似理由, 不以人民利益為大前提，無理的限制甚至禁止外國的支援。中國人權,一直是外國人很關注的事情，不惜以經濟上、政治上, 甚至奧運主辦權來利誘，但都徒勞無功。直至這次地震， 國家倒真的付出真心！地震，喚醒了中國人的愛國熱情，中國人的團結精神。地震，救了中國人的心！
對西藏的問題，這個是很敏感的一個事情。我一直沒有發表我的中肯的意見。當時，3。14 事件發生的時候，我身在澳門，覺得暴亂事件是很可悲的，正如四川地震，也是可悲的。
暴亂， 本身不是正當的手段，但人們，指大部分的中國漢人，思想都是很偏激的，biased 的。中國人是很聰敏的民族，我一直知道，中國政府在控制人心方面，手段是一流的。天安門事件，他們可以説是無中生有，完全ignore 國際關注，一齊都以“內政”為由，拒絕與一切國外組織的對話。這個，對於身在外國的華人，給看成是蠻理落后國家的人，是做成自卑的來源。這次剛好身在澳門，看到他們偏幫的傳媒報導，根本就是官方口舌！！ 這對於有良知、客觀、思想不受污染改造的有識之士, 是令人氣憤心酸的. 國家命運，如何如此坎坷？跟親人論及, 反而被指偏袒，被指不愛國，真是是非顛倒！正好， 這樣使我又想起，跟天安門事件的處理方法， 難怪當年那麽多無知人民受到蒙蔽！這是歷史重演。
藏民暴動， 殺人、搶砸, 是絕對違法, 是不對的。可是中國人，只會想這是藏民的錯。問題是，人們沒有從客觀的方面去理解，西藏跟中國，在歷史上的關係，西藏人本身在藏地給排斥、剝削和政治上、思想上、宗教上的鎮壓。 經濟改革，改善人民生活，中國政府，對藏民，的磪是有大恩德。可在同時， 漢藏同化政策下造成的負面影嚮, 政府卻不予理會。藏人的恩人，不等於就有權剝奪藏人的權利。
藏民暴動，是多年來，民衆久受抑壓下作出的反抗，是對改革的渴望! 冰封三尺，非一日之寒。這是多年來縕釀的。愛國，還是需要理智的愛，中國同胞，當然要愛，但是，有建設性的批評, 纔會改革，纔有進步。 外國政府的架構， 就有反對黨，與執政黨同時存在，這是外國人聰明的地方，也是中國落後的原因。說中國政府解放了西藏，試問，我來了你家，吞佔家產, 然後官冕唐皇的去“解救”你, 你感覺如何？這個，不正是，他家人的事，不該管嗎？那爲什麽，中國政府常常對外國人說不要理中國人自己家裏的事？
中國歷史上，所有的起義、革命，都起源于不同朝代民衆對政府的不滿，這都是錯了嗎？那新中國是如何產生的? 從政府眼裏，一切起義、革命都是叛變, 卻在人民眼中卻是起義。在當時社會，起義的方式，是不是就是今天所謂的暴動？今天所謂的暴動， 是不是也是起義的一個方式？
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March 28
Opened my Space tonight and was surprised to receive an ADD request from a beautiful young lady. It happened to be some one i met in Hong Kong last week. This person i wanted to say Good bye to before we went separate ways. I planned to call her when she was at the HK airport. That never happened as I was busy doing late night shopping on the HK streets, hehe. I happened to find out on her Space what a gorgeous lady she really is--in appearance anyways. As for her characteristics, let me just simply say, it is great to meet her in an unexpeted kind of way and our gathering is HK was due to fate and fortune. It is a memorable event.
Yes, i have been away for a long time. Physically and cyberly. I have been travelling to many countries and with great blessings, met many great new friends.
This new person in my friends list is one of the many i met. Checking her profile and photos, it made me treasure more of these short yet wonderful meetings. I must admit, i dont have a great sense for beautiful woman. If you check out her 'Artistic Portraits', i am sure your jaw will drop to the floor. I did not even know she was so gorgeous when we met in person... What was I thinking?  December 31 舊年隨過 元宵復始
祝願平安 快樂如意
Happy New Year to all.
May the new year be full of fun and happiness.
May you be happy, healthy, and prosperous in the new year.
December 25
Season of Love, Season of Joy, Season of Giving and Sharing, ...
Christmas 2007 is finally here.
For me, things have been busy until a couple days before the big day.
So i did not get into the christmas spirits until 2 or 3 days before the big day.
In fact, it was the Carols that came to the rescue.
On the christmas eve and christmas day, the TV stations had been playing christmas carols peformed by many different choirs. Beautiful music, beautiful sounds and excellent performances. So it was these peformances that put me in the christmas spirits.
Until a week before the holidays, things have been busy.
i got a guest and family here and lots of things to do.
we finally sent them off home at the airport a few days ago and then catching up with back-logs at work, not so much time to enjoy the christmas festive spirits yet.
Although we have a major SNOW storm coming in the past weekend.
things are slowing down and most people are on vacation at the office.
i am quite slow in terms of catching up with the spirits.
i am not in the mood for christmas..
maybe it is stress and no time to relax and enjoy the spirits.
A few days later:
xmas is almost here. i am not sad or anything. just this year, i am not feeling the spirits.
i used to LOVE xmas, excited about it... i just dont know why it is not happening to me this year.
it is weird this year, hehe. but i will live.
we did not even put out the xmas tree
Then, a few days before christmas:
After being dampened in the christmas spirits,
today i finally turned on the radio at work and listen to the xmas songs.
Indulge myself and motivate myself to enjoy the excitements that come with christmas.
Merry xmas to you.
The night before Christmas Eve,:
It was so late and the tree is not up yet. Yet my wife refused to let the kids and i put up the christmas tree... she does not want us to mess up the floor. Eventually the little kid insisted and we started at 10 pm.
after 2 hours it is done. and the whole family loves it.
now we are in christmas spirits hehe... maybe i will post a photo of the tree here.
Christmas Eve:
A day of relaxation. Just chilled out at home. Sleep and more sleep. TV and oh, the christmas carols. They saved the day, they saved the christmas for me. This is an odd year for me in that i did not even care about listening to christmas songs on the radio. But the christmas choirs are really something else. So wonderful! And immediately i feel like christmas is here. Drove around the neighbourhood to look at the christmas lightings on people’s houses. I love this every year, although we did not do much on the exterior this year. I had been too busy for it in November and then it was too cold and already had too much snow in December. Finally we have the time to contemplate on the meanings of christmas, to us and to others, the rich and the poor alike.
Christmas Day:
I basically just took another easy day and talked to a long-lost friend. Well actually some one i met a long time and magically reconnected lately. Have some neighbours’ kids over in the afternoon, before we headed for christmas turkey dinner with my family members. i actually enjoyed the lamb roasts better than turkey. More time to reflect on the true meaning of christmas, and how one should share with the less unfortuante. Many inspiring and motivational stories in the news. Now i am reminded the season is about the birth of a saviour, a hero, the one with great LOVE. Love Thy Neighbours! It is a season I traditionally make donations to charities.
Boxing Day:
No shopping intended. Other activities are planned.
On following days, there will be more visits to friends’, including a chance to try at the karaoke.
This will pretty much wrap up my christmas activities for 2007.
Wish everybody a lovely and wonderful holiday season. Happy and Prosperous New Year.
November 22 Snow is finally here, at end of November.
Christmas is also here, with the first christmas song.
On the way home, the rain changed to flurries, snow started to accumulate on the ground.
As i was listening to the first christmas song of the year "Jingle Bell Rocks" in the car, from the Christmas Song Station, i had to pay more attention to the road condition.
On the side road, which is surrounded by trees, there were even more snow. Normally this made me nervous, but this time, trying to indulge myself in the festive mood, i actually take time to enjoy the slow driving. I try to make more fun and joy from the driving. Why make yourself nervous while you can sit back and relax. Like I always say: the mind shapes your world.
At the time of writing, the road outside of the house is all covered by a small layer of snow.
Winter is here.
Let us see if this winter can be a good season to enjoy with a happy mind. November 20
Seasons Coming
‘tis the season, the holiday season
Winter comes slowly this year.
We have had a mild summer. Not very hot, but long.
Then a long, warm fall.
The flowers outside my house are still in good condition.
Temperature is still way over the freezing mark, in single digit.
Snow only fell last week, tinny bits of flurries. Not real snow.
But the season is definitely coming….it is November 20!
Only a month away from the most joyful time of the year – Christmas.
On the way to work, I noticed the tree leaves on our street have finally fallen onto the ground—a rare sight, in November. So that was my first cue.
It is amazing the leaves skip Fall and fall in winter. Kind of out of ordinary.
Then I heard on the radio, commercials of Christmas shopping…..definitely the most obvious sign.
Couple years back, a station started the trend to play all day Christmas songs early in November. The following year, it became the ‘IN’ thing and every station followed suits. SO you don’t hear regular music for almost 8 or 9 weeks in the year. It was quite fun and festive and put me to a very happy mood. Then everybody got so sick of constantly listening to Christmas songs, that they stopped this practice in the subsequent years. Now on November 20, I still have not heard any Christmas songs yet and Christmas has silently slipped off my guard.
Of course, some people have started putting up Christmas lightings in the exterior of the house. And I love that. We used to drive around different neighborhoods to see the exterior decoration, which is a big thing in north American culture. We even drove 50 minutes to another town to see beautiful Christmas lights. Some people are so enthusiastic they put up thousands of Christmas light bulbs. It is definitely display of the Christmas spirits.
I wonder when Christmas will come….ahh, the spirits, that is. September 11 A tense heart - defensive and tense emotions, root of emotional problems.
A soft heart, just like in Wushu, conquers the fierceful with gentleness. 以柔能制剛.
A soft heart enables one to relax and flexible.
A soft heart entails one's own sweetness.
With a soft, gentle, a flexible heart, one can handle all with ease, poise, and dignity.
Then you can keep your cool, and keep you mind under control.
You can Let it Be. Be natural. Can get rid of rationalization and decursive thoughts.
With a soft heart, you can stay at ease and alert.
Relax. September 06 Being dakini day, (and a hot, humid day), it was no surprise to meet many dakinis on the road. Attractive, voluptious, youthful dakinis.
After the group practice this evening, i went straight to dish washing. Earned some appreciation, needless to say.
In fact, I have not been in a mood to talk so I went ahead to contribute some services.
Without saying anything nor making eye contact, I walked right out of the kitchen when I was done.
I did it, because a true good friend, Lydia, always encourage me to really provide help. Help out with the place, with chore, and with people. Today, maybe it is the blessings, I went ahead to do it without planning or consideration.
Just do it.
Also due to encouragement from the same good friend, who recommends me to make aspiration for one's wishes, I made a pledge tonight to really pick up my learning of a certain language, after the group practice. I hope, one reason i have not made any progresses in this 'certain' language is I just put it off and make no comittment to put in more energy to it.
So after learning the alphabets many years ago, I still cannot converse in this language.
With this pledge, I wish to be more committed to learning it. Hopefully I will be fluent in it with 2 year. 
This time, I make an aspirational wish.
On the way home, another unimaginable thing happened. Again, maybe due to dakini blessings. 
On the subway, a young lady had to drag her luggage up a long flight of stairs. I walked by her and, without considerations or planning, I lift up the bottom of the luggage and help her through the staircase. Once upon the top, she said thank you and I just quickly turned away without looking at the lady.
I did it, without hesitation, because I did not plan it or expect it.
Oh, what happened to me today?
I was willing to do these 'good' deeds when I dont think about it and analyse it.
No proliferation, no consideration.
If I were given time to consider the situation, I will probably give myself excuses not to do them.
Funny how it works!
Khenpo Tsewang Gyatso is a well-learned teacher endorsed by HH Penor R. As he was leaving his hostess house one day, the little children came to see him off, with tears in their red eyes. Impressd by their reactions and affections for Khenpo, I wonder what 'magic' was Khenpo pulling on the family. I would not mind being as popular as Khenpo is, so I posted the question to Khenpo. His simply reply--lots of compassion (and ...i forgot the rest  ). That is the magic. Huh hah. Compassion will melt mountains. (I suppose,  )
With sincerity and genuine compassion, you are a genuine loving person, and you can be as popular as you ever wish.
August 21
又一年... ...
今年生日我過得好開心﹐比我想像中過得更加開心﹐ 因為有一大班好朋友陪我慶祝。
多謝每一個出席我生日party 嘅人﹐多謝我新相識的朋友仔。
Thank You...
(Do check out the photo album 2007 07 Birthday)  June 26
其實一向自制力不好， 容易受誘惑，所以採取遠離政策，不敢縱情聲色。
但禁久心癢，早陣子任意放縱於尋找快樂， 追求享受人生。
其中有喜有悲，縂算是試過了。現在也應該收拾心情。
繼上次所覆友后，得到啓示，從此採取的心態，應該是——游戯自在舞！
好一句： ‘宠辱不惊，去留无意’。 June 22 應友之一句:
“去留无意 望窗外云卷云舒
宠辱不惊 看庭前花开花落.“
所覆如下:
自來自去水中畫 無生無滅空有運
如如不動了分明 菩提無樹任自如
（自來自去 水中畫圓
無生無滅 空有雙運
如如不動 了了分明
菩提無樹 任運自如）
June 20 Drin Chen Tsa Wai Dang Gyud Pa Ce Pe Lama La Chag Tsal Lo
早陣子情慾高漲, 縱情享樂、聲色犬馬, 盡意体驗世間歡趣, 反惹得妄念紛飛, 煩惱執著不由自生，莫能自控， 正是惹火自焚。
午間心情仍甚亂,往市政廳前噴水池前靜思,情緒未能平定, 無法安坐，心中滿不是味兒。
可幸, 於公司深宵處理稅務事宜後, 歸家途中運用 Dorje Naljorma 之 Dzog Rim 法, 調理受妄心紊亂之氣息。果然, 氣調而念平, 心息漸定, 思緒亦漸而平伏。多日來受慾念所蔽之心終獲開解, 脫離鉫鎖， 思清念明。為貪慾樂而所受之傷痛煎熬, 竟能不制而自減。 歴日來諸多苦痛, 不求而自去，奇異哉！
原來, 古德遺留之寶貴教言, 確能凑效，以定能去執斷惑, 止妄除貪，此為親證。
再者,回家前審讀 Dalai VI 之情詩, 彼尊為聖,仍為業而飽受愛慾纏身之痛,彼最終仍能醒悟超脫. 我等俗子, 實難擺脫情愛, 唯幸有史可據,仿古效法.
后記: 翌晨得有処趣夢境, 於遊樂場玩集体遊戲、魚池中取物,以馬步陡开大魚來击, 半空飛起. 哈哈,有意思! 后半睡半醒中,得丹震,再有自發。
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